Tiny objects of importance

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Porcelina lip balm of the oceans blue 
Dots
Worn to connect smell to physical skill in learning ceramics from Akira Satake in workshop NC 2020. It worked. 

Kept since Jr High from Roma Deli (a really cool Italian deli I liked in Newbury Park CA)
Chord tie
Smashed penny from Tge San Diego Zoo. Fender picks. MEDIUM.
Gifts from Ray he gave them to me from the health food store.
William Wegman cards given to me by Mom. I’ve kept these since 4th grade.
Patchouli.
Gift from Mom. She knew I liked the hello kitty store. I had my first kiss at the hello kitty store at 13. She gave this and other hello kitty things to remind me even after I was too old to go there.
Rapidograph
GODDESS I don’t like the way it smells but it’s connected to ceramics somehow. It makes me good at ceramics.

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