The stress of that last long term motel stay. So glad it’s over

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 Holy fucking hell. Did that ever suck. Stress city.

Taking care of myself today and tomorrow to feel better.


Living in the staged Arminta street house now is getting better with incense and meditation.


Then on to Jackson street!









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